1 year 9 months and 9 days.

that's how long it has been since jason left this earth.

today, i miss my brother.

today, i want another hug.

today, i am just a lost little sister.



on this day where we honor our mothers, my mind can't comprehend how to truly honor this woman who has given so much of her life to me. this woman who is the strongest woman i've ever had the privilege of knowing.

how do you honor your mother enough when there should be 2 of you to complete this task? how do you honor your mother when all you can think is 'what would he have done for her today'?

that's where i am today.

desiring to honor my mother enough for both of us. i don't know how that will be accomplished, but that is where i am today.