research

okay, so i'm doing some research for a paper right now, and in my reading, i came across something that i thought i needed to share. the paper i'm researching for is about girls dealing with abandonment trauma because of their fathers being absent in their lives, and the portion of the book i'm reading is the portion about coming to grips with these feelings and allowing God to heal you. here's what it said:

Because God loves me, He is slow to lose patience with me.
Because God loves me, He takes the circumstances of my life and uses them in a constructive way
for my growth.
Because God loves me, He does not treat me as an object to be possessed and manipulated.
Because God loves me, He has no need to impress me with how great and powerful He is because He is
God. Nor does He belittle me as His child in order to show me how important He is.
Because God loves me, He is for me. He wants to see me mature and develop in His love.
Because God loves me, He does not send down His wrath on every little mistake I make of which
there are many.
Because God loves me, He does not keep score of all my sins and then beat me over the head with
them whenever He gets a chance.
Because God loves me, He is deeply grieved when I do not walk in the ways that please Him
because He sees this as evidence that I don't trust Him and love Him as I should.
Because God loves me, He rejoices when I experience His power and strength and stand up under
the pressure of life for His name's sake.
Because God loves me, He keeps working patiently with me even when I feel like giving up and
can't see why He doesn't give up with me, too.
Because God loves me, He keeps on trusting me when at times I don't even trust myself.
Because God loves me, He never says there is no hope for me, rather, He patiently works with
me, loves me, and disciplines me in such a way that it is hard for me to understand the
depth of His concern for me.
Because God loves me, He never forsakes me even though many of my friends might.




if you want the title of the book, leave a comment and i'll do my best to get it to you.

break my heart

hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest
hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest

i see the King of Glory
coming on the clouds with fire
the whole earth shakes
the whole earth shakes

i see His love and mercy
washing over all our sin
the people sing
the people sing

hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest
hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest

i see a generation
rising up to take their place
with selfless faith
with selfless faith

i see a near revival
stirring as we pray and seek
we're on our knees
we're on our knees

hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest
hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest

heal my heart and make it clean
open up my eyes to the things unseen
show me how to love like You have loved me

break my heart for what breaks Yours
everything i am for Your Kingdom's cause
as i go from earth in to eternity

hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest
hosanna, hosanna
hosanna in the highest

the more i seek You
the more i find You

the more i find You
the more i love You

i wanna sit at Your feet
drink from the cup in Your hand
lay back against You and breathe
feel Your heart beat

this love is so deep
it's more than i can stand
i melt in Your peace
it's overwhelming

my heart cannot see
when i only look at me
my soul cannot hear
when i only think of my own fears
they are gone in a moment
You're forever the same
why did i run away from You
why can't i speak Your name



i feel like i've been wandering lately. i feel like i've been looking at me. why do i continue to do this? why do i continue to focus on me instead of God? why? especially when i'm taking so many Bible and ministry classes...when i know that i am called by God to serve Him?

i'm finding myself at a loss for words...

and the funny thing is, it's okay.

God has been showing me a lot about dependence upon Him right now. i can't believe how much He is continuing to teach me on a daily basis. right now, i'm studying about His love, and it never ceases to amaze me that He would love me the way that He does.

i'm studying this for an assignment for a class, and through this assignment i'm learning so much about myself. it's pretty crazy. sometimes i feel like i'm reading books that were written especially for me, but i know that they aren't.

anyways, life overall is good. i'm keeping really busy with my classes, but i like them all. i love a couple of them, but a couple of them are ones that i'm just trying to get through. anyways, i should probably go and do some homework...or go to bed early and get a lot of sleep...

i never knew death could be so sweet
i never knew surrender could feel so free
i've never seen such meekness and majesty
that the blood of Jesus was bled for me

and now i'll sing freedom for all of my days
it's only by the power of the cross i'm raised
the King of Glory rescued me

how beautiful the blood flow
how merciful the love shown
the King of Glory poured out
victorious are we now

i never knew these nails would love unfold
i never knew these wounds would heal my soul
i've never seen such beauty and sorrow meet
the blood of Jesus was bled for me

and now i'll sing freedom for all of my days
it's only by the power of the cross i'm raised
the King of Glory rescued me

how beautiful the blood flow
how merciful the love shown
the King of Glory poured out
victorious are we now









everyone needs compassion
a love that's never failing
let mercy fall on me

everyone needs forgiveness
the kindness of a Savior
the Hope of nations

Savior, He can move the mountains
my God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
forever, Author of Salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

so take me as you find me
all my fears and failures
and fill my life again

i give my life to follow
everything i believe in
now i surrender (i surrender)

Savior, He can move the mountains
my God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
forever, Author of Salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Savior, He can move the mountains
my God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
forever, Author of Salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

so, shine your light and let the whole world see
we're singing for the glory of the Risen King, Jesus
shine your light and let the whole world see
we're singing for the glory of the Risen King

Savior, He can move the mountains
my God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
forever, Author of Salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave